I have known you, and loved you (even when I hid that love in that place inside you where you hide things that you can't process, or are scared of, or are unknown) for as long as I can remember. I mean, really, when I think about my life...all 23 years... there is "The Paris Era", "The Forgotten Era", and "The Post Meeting Tyler Era"! And yet, after all this time, and all we've been through... I just got major butterflies in my stomach thinking about you. Full on, "he just asked me on our first date"/"my hand accidentally grazed his"/"he put his arms around me for the first time at the movies"/"first kiss" kind of butterflies.
It dawned on me that, while I love you completely, I am sure that in some way or another, my love for you has been stifled by this distance between us. Maybe not stifled, but most certainly unable to reach it's full potential. I love knowing that I can love you more then I do right now. That I can spend the rest of my life learning new ways to love you, feeling more and more loved by you.
I've spent an insanely little amount of time with John and Nicole, but it doesn't take long to see how insanely in love they are. They just fit. They are a team! They are grown ups with responsibility, though decisions, a child and bills... but I swear I see them look at each other and I know that is how they looked at each other when they met 7 years ago. Watching how happy Nicole is when John is in the room, makes me so look forward to being your wife. To being partners and taking care of each other. I want to be the person that helps makes your stress melt away.
I can't stand thinking of how hard you work, and how poorly everything at works gets handle. And how little you get recognized for all that you do. You are such a determined, able, tenacious worker. You see something that needs to be done, and you do it. I'm so proud to have a man who takes any job as seriously as you do yours. It's respectable and commendable.
It's insane to think that this whole last part of us... dating, getting it right (finally :), getting engaged... we've spend so little time in the same state. So much time apart. I know that God knew of he was doing (obviously), and I am grateful for the way it happen. We were forced to take things slow. To communicate and be honest. And now, we get to be together! We get to decide to see a late night movie on an impulse, take a drive to nowhere, stay in the house all day and watch....well, we both know how long the list of shows/movies we want to watch together is!
I realize that life will never be just a walk in the park, (Ooh! Walks in the park!) and that there will be parts of this transition that might be awkward/weird/difficult or just need adjusting, but I can't wait for the next phase. I can't wait to be sad, and get to see you versus hear you. To be cold, and get to wrap up with you! To feel scared, and feel your hand comfort mine.
I will never deserve you. I will never be perfect, but know that I will spend my life - and all our days together proud to be by your side, humbled that you picked me, and always trying to make you the happiest man alive!
I can't wait to give you kisses.
Love,
Scarlet.
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